How to be a frustrated writer

How to be a frustrated writer
By savage fredd

You’re got to fuck with a great many drugs
heavy drugs
and write a few decent emails
and don’t worry about days passing
and/or fresh ideas.
Just drink more booze
and do more and more drugs
and play chess at least once a
week
and win
if possible.
Learning to win is hard –
any jackass can be a good loser.
And don’t forget your Miles
and your Coltrane and your
dope.
Don’t overthink
or go to sleep before two.
Avoid debt
or paying anything on
time.
Remember, that no piece of ass
In this world is worth over $5.
Ever.
And if you have the ability to care
care for yourself first
But always be aware of the possibility of
total paralysis
whether the reason for your fears
seems valid.
Stay out of the bookstores and side streets and war zones
and like the wino be
impervious—
pain isn't everybody’s cross.
Stay with the hard drugs,
dope is a continuous liar.
Get a laptop
and as the buses and strollers go up and down
outside your window,
bang that thing
bang it hard
bang it like an overweight lover
bang the bullshit out of it until it tells truths
and honor the old dogs who fought so well:
Buk
Pappa
Mailer.
If you think they didn’t go crazy
in tiny rooms
stabbing themselves
without fear
without rage
without dreams
then you’re not ready.
Drink more booze.
there’s never enough time.
and if there is,
that’s alright too.